Blowing up

I never understood what's going on my brain. I hate you but I love you I hate you but I need you. You're like my blood. Never ever go away from me, although i swear! I hate you most! I don't know this feeling. Unpredictable. Push me to stand up. Stand up how's beautiful the real is? So basicly I'm screw. I'm undercontrol. And I'm in hard-heavy-edge.